该不该 ..

作曲:林麗珍, 編曲:Aubrey Suwito
監製:, 填詞:冷玩妹

誰羨慕我的世界　
誰忌妒妳的一切
其實我們　都無所謂　
愛的人都在身邊　
這就是我的永遠

另一個我離妳很遠　
這感覺我都膽怯
當苦與樂　各自體會　
各有各的每一天　
只能輕描淡寫　我的淚

該不該　告訴妳我不是不愛
該不該　心靠著心才能明白
我的愛　渴望填滿　如果妳能打開

我已經習慣在最深的孤單　
才能看清楚所有自己的糾纏
不能分享是因為我也說不上來　
不是故意隱瞞　也從不想過離開

错过 ..

叶子，你也在等人吗？还是只是错过了公车？
叶子：“我在等一个我错过了的人，公车能带我去吗？”


曾经
错过了一次机会
以为自己够坚强
天真的以为时间能平复一切 ..

时间 依然一秒一秒的流逝
情感却一秒一秒的累积了起来 ..

后悔 错过
好讨厌那种感觉
好讨厌自己的不潇洒

如果 能够
不想错过 ..

[叶子，你也在等人吗？还是只是错过了公车？]

Leaving ...

The day is approaching, 3 days more (28 December 2009) I'll be leaving Malaysia to start a new journey in a whole new place, Hong Kong, for at least 3 years. There are so many things I wanted to do before I leave. However, I only managed to do portion of those in the wanted-things-to-do list due to time constraint. Below is the managed & unmanaged things:

Managed:
1. Farewell with my colleagues and students. Thanks for all the wishes.

My colleagues

With IB students I taught earlier

S.H.E?

The memories

2. Visited my Karate master in Malacca.
3. Managed to move to new office for about a week :p

My new office

4. Paid a visit to some friends who are working in Singapore including a friend whom I've lost contact for more than 3 years after we graduated from MMU.

Friend whom I lost contact for many years

Secondary school's friends

Snowman standing on Orchard Road

Unmanaged:

1. Failed to meet a friend due to I had to rush to airport to pick up my uncle.
2. Failed to meet up with one of my mentors in MMU Malacca.
3. Failed to meet up with some buddies from MMU in KL & Penang.


Goodbye, Malaysia ...

The belated cake ...

Dol hareubang

Sorry to deliver the birthday cake 6 months later as I promised to buy one on your birthday. Sorry for failing to do so on your big day. Unfortunately, it was another regret for not being able to pass you the belated birthday cake personally. Anyhow, wish you all the best and hope able to meet you again ... take care.

An Unforgettable Trip to Penang

Yesterday I was attending to a wedding function of my colleague at Penang. The function was scheduled at 7pm at Sunway Hotel, Seberang Jaya. However, a few colleagues and I had planned to go there earlier so that we could have sightseeing before attending to the function.

Sunway Hotel, Seberang Jaya

We were car pooling and depart to Penang from Kampar at 9am. The traffic was smooth on the way heading to Penang and took us about 2 hours to arrive at the Auto City. After that, we met Dr. Lee LH at Sg. Dua and had our lunch at a Thai Food Restaurant before crossing to the island.
After lunch, we departed to the Penang island to meet up with Dr. Cheng and his wife at Queensbay Mall.

From left: Dr. Cheng WK (Michael) and his wife, Wong CS, Dr. Lee LH

Performance show at Queensbay Mall

At around 5pm, we (Dr. Choo & his wife, Dr. Lee LH, Wong CS, me) were heading to Sg. Dua again as Dr. Lee needed to fetch his wife to attend to the function later. As been recommended by Dr. Lee, we paid a visit to a temple which has been known to be built at the cost of 8 million Ringgit Malaysia. Here are some photos taken.

The function started at around 8pm and ended at around 10pm. We departed from Penang back to Kampar at around 10.30pm. The trip back to Kampar was unexpected longer than I thought in term of time spent on the traffic. It took me 6 hours to get back to Kampar as the traffic was terrible in the North-South highway. The traffic started jamming just passed after the Tambun Exit and the flow was almost not moveable at all. We were trapped in the traffic for a few hours and decided to exit at the Kuala Kangsar to take the normal road back to Kampar. It was around 2++pm that time. It took an hour plus to get all of us back to Kampar including sending my boss and his wife back at Mambang Di Awan. I was home at around 4am and that time I was almost exhausted as I had not been slept for more than 25 hours.

Insane, isn't it?

Taken during the function at Sunway Hotel

PhD Studies

Soon, I'll be leaving my current position and off to oversea again to further my PhD study as a full time student with full scholarship at the Hong Kong Polytechnic University (PolyU). Having back to Malaysia for just a year and 4 months, I'm leaving again, for at least another 3 years. Initially I was planning to go at the end of November, however, the plan has been postponed for another month due to the delay of the visa application.

Department of Computing, PolyU

Some people have asked me, why can I just leave my family, friends and career behind and go oversea? The answer is quite subjective and depends on how you look on the issue. I'm leaving none of them. Although I'll be in oversea but it doesn't mean I'll never come back. Family and friends are the one who always giving support to you whenever you need helps from them, although we may not meet that often. I'm not forgetting anyone of my friends, but just expanding my network to knowing more friends from around the world. I've left my career as I prefer to be a full time PhD student so that I can pay full concentration on doing research and hopefully can get my PhD done on time. I've heard from some of my friends their supervisors have promised the PhD could be done in about 2.5 years, on a part time basis. I hardly can believe that as when come to the world of research, there's no guarantee that you could find your answer within a specific period. I'm not sure about the requirements to be awarded for a PhD degree in that university but I believe most of the universities having almost the same criteria - at least 2 Thomson ISI journals. Unless someone has extended his/her master's research otherwise is somehow difficult to complete the PhD within 2.5 years, at least not applicable to me.

Did I so lucky to obtain a scholarship? In some sense, I did. I'm lucky to have met with a few person whom have changed the direction of my life since I was an undergraduate student and they have been my mentors since then. Without them, I definitely wouldn't have the courage to pursue higher degrees. So to some of my juniors from MMU, the scholarship won't automatically come to you, please try to move your first step. Do you know how many emails I'd sent to approach the potential supervisors and also to seek for the sponsorships? The opportunity you must seek by yourself, but not the other way round. There's no harm to have a trial and I see no point of what are you worry and scare of? Worry or scare of being rejected? Worry or scare of lacking of knowledge to pursue higher degree (master)? Those are nonsense. Life is full of failure, more importantly is how to face the failure. You would find yourself know even lesser after you've done your master's degree. Confuse? But is truth.

Good luck.

An unpleasant day ...

Today as usual I went to campus at around 7++am. I had a couple of things to do before noon, and I had hoped could be done latest by noon. First, to draw lots to pick a room in the new building. Luckily I've chosen one facing the lake as it would not as noisy as those facing the corridor, I supposed. Anyhow, I've planned to swap the room with Dr. Cheng due to personal reason, but that would happen only if ... The first thing wouldn't take much time actually, just randomly picking a number in a box only.

Mr. Matahari

However, the thing really bothered me was the meeting chaired by an old man - a "veteran" known as "matahari" has been with this institution for so many years. The meeting as said supposedly to be started at 10am actually, but ended up nobody had shown up on time. I had no choice but got to wait for the rest of the committees. Finally, the chairman came at around 10.15am. However, the first thing he did was not initiate the meeting but went to draw lots to pick his new room, great !!! Then, the next wonder he did was to PREPARE the materials to be used in the meeting. The meeting was supposed to start at 10am, he came late and was just want to preparing the materials for the meeting >_<"'...

Frankly speaking, I don't really like to attend the meeting held by him as I've had a few bad experiences earlier. Just take the last meeting held last two weeks as example, he spent about 1 hour and 45 minutes to discuss only 2 simple issues. He likes to talk a lot of nonsense and more importantly, he don't want to make decision. Can you imagine as being a leader and don't want to make any decision as he don't want to bear any responsibilities on any decision made, what the ... that's why I said he is "veteran", indeed a Tai Chi master.

Tai Chi Master

At around 12.30pm, the meeting was still like endless story and I really couldn't stand with my hunger and anger anymore, felt like going to have gastric soon, and to slap the Matahari.

Can I slap you?

The things discussed in the meeting again were not the big issues but he did not want to make any decision even asked by one of the deputy deans (DD) how he handled the similar kind of things based on his past experiences. The Tai Chi master again showed his power by replying to DD that he couldn't recall anymore and pointed to me to make the decision. I really fed up with the meeting and therefore I just pulled myself off from the meeting without seeking his permission and went to have my lunch. Do not want to bother anymore!!!

Hopefully I'll be relieved from this committee soon!!!